Peel Back the Layers
We gather the crayons, coloring books and her Elsa tray table and head up the stairs to her room. There is something very precious I want to share with her. As we walk, my mind starts to wander to when I was her age and the memories come flooding in…
I open the little yellow box and the scent overwhelms me. Not having much to keep me occupied, I welcome this creative outlet before me. The texture of the paper under my hand stirs a pang of excitement deep in my tiny belly. Convinced this is going to be my next masterpiece, I gaze into the box and methodically pick the perfect color. But before I begin, there is something I must do. I lay the crayon down and go over to my dresser.
Next to coloring, my other favorite escape is to a place akin to Peter Pan’s Neverland. I steal away to my room as much as possible so I can experience it over and over again. Flipping through my box of vinyl records, I finally see it. I slide the big black disk out of the protective sheet and place it on the record player. Needle placement is crucial. It must land on the outer rim, close enough to the edge to stay on, but careful not to miss the silent introduction and enter the story prematurely.
Click, click, click….
The idea that sound can transmit through a tiny needle mesmerizes me. I pick up my crayon and as the introductory music plays I’m transported to a world very different from my own.
Oh how I long for those days again.
Walking up the stairs it is quite clear that I am more excited than she is. I get it. She is hesitant to step away from her favorite show. Can she even comprehend the amazing world that is about to envelop her? I share with her how much fun I had listening to audio stories and coloring when I was her age. And although I’m not sure she fully understands what’s coming, as I get more animated about my memories, she becomes a little more excited.
By the time we reach the top of the stairs her mood improves. Walking into her room she is already describing how we need to organize her table so she can color while she listens to her new stories on her CD player. I hope this becomes a precious memory to her, like mine is to me.
But this abrupt change in her demeanor leads me to question if her excitement is authentic. Is she really exited about this or is she just pretending to be excited to make me happy?
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I want my daughter to be comfortable enough with herself to say, “Sorry, this isn’t me.”
This Journey Toward Authenticity is going to require us to take time to examine our inner selves. As we do, let’s keep this thought in mind: are we being honest in how we see ourselves and how we are presenting ourselves to others?
Peel Back the Layers
Look closely at a sliced onion, like the one in the picture above, and you will clearly see there are several layers. Peel back the layers and you’ll find a bulb where the onion began. That is the core.
We are like that onion.
We have a core. This is our center ~ it is the essence of who God created us to be. This is where we find our individuality. Surrounding this core are several layers that represent those times we have pretended, or presented ourselves to other people in a way that goes against our core. Peel back the layers and see what your core reveals about you. What are your beliefs? Who do you want to be? Are you living the life YOU want to live, or have you gone in a different direction to please someone else?
This process is not an easy one. Depending on where we are emotionally it could take quite a bit of time. But it’s a critical step in our journey. If we can’t identify who we truly are, how are we to know if we are being true to ourselves? And most importantly, we need to embrace what we discover, even if it goes against everything we have stood for in the past. The idea is to find out who we are at our core. So Peel back the layers and see the beauty that is revealed.
This is day four of the 31-Day Journey Toward Authenticity series! To see all the posts in the series, click HERE.